Trust

"I would that ye should remember, that as much as ye shall put your trust in God even so much ye shall be delivered out of your trials, and your troubles, and your afflictions, and ye shall be lifted up at the last day." Alma 38:5

I have always believed that we are never given trials that we can't overcome. At times I forget this. There are times when I feel so down that I think how can I go on. But as I was reading this scripture, I realized that Satan wants me to believe I can't overcome the things I am going through. Reading the scriptures, the Ensign and other church materials I have always found a comfort that lifts that ugly dark cloud over my head. I find peace in the gospel. It is always the one thing that can lift my spirit. It strengthens my faith and gives me hope that one day I will be over certain trials. We have to have enough faith and trust in our Heavenly Father to have our trials delivered from us. It doesn't mean that we will be given an easy way out. I think it means that our trials will be lightened and that we will one day overcome our trials even if it is in the last day. If we endure to the end God will bless us for all we have done in this life that is righteous. Our gospel is precious and true.

Pregnancy

I have six weeks left and I don't know how I am going to make it. I am already having contractions, I feel nausea all the time, and I have no room to breathe. I am a baby. How do women do it? This is my third pregnancy and it seems like I forget what it was like the last time pregnancy so I decide I want another one and then realize half way through the pregnancy that I am crazy. How did Eve do it? She has it even harder. She didn't even have a doctor. She had Adam. I think if Dan had to deliver our children he would pass out before the baby came. I am excited for the baby. I watch all these mothers at church smiling at their babies or playing with them or feeding their babies and I miss that. My two children are so independent that cuddling with mom is out of the question. The only time they need me is when they are fighting over toys or to change their diapers or to feed them. I want some one to need me but also someone who wants me to hold them.